An existance that was not meant for reality.

Usually I'd say I'm a black sheep among the society. I feel like my thoughts are mostly just different from others.

But then on second thought. I'm neither the normal white sheep nor black sheep. I'm definitely an in-between, perhaps the Silver sheep? ¬¬''  I guess that makes it even worse than a black sheep.. Lol ..*ahem*

Have to say I'm rewatching this anime " Clannad " lately. Still same old , I think this is more or less my 5th time rewatching it =x

This happened to be the anime that really taught me kindness and the importance of relationships. Friends and family. Every-time I watch something like that , I would always wished I exist in their world instead of the current one. Sure , guess you can label me as the uh.. so called " anime freak" , but seriously , I don't give a damn. At least , that's the only thing that showed me that their world is one of those which is worth living for. It's kind of magical whenever I try imagining myself in their world. Seems like it's a world that is fit for even a weirdo as weird as the one talking here. *hah*

But one thing I would love to hate so much about Clannad is that how beautiful they made friendship and relationship means. Makes me feel sad whenever I have to turn of the anime and to find myself that I'm back in reality. Where people back stab you , even if it's your closest friend. And that there's no such thing as the existence of such caring people around.

I could barely feel touched by anything. But most of the time when I feel touched , it'd be coming from scenes from animes.

Great. Now for the Conclusion : I'm too weird. Lol.

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I've also re-watched some old 2D animation cartoon. Quest for Camelot.
    There was this part where the main guy character got scratched by an arrow that shot by. And from the comments I read , most people wrote stuffs like ..

" oh ? just a scratch? There's not even any blood I can see and the girl's telling him not to die??"
"crap , just a tiny scratch and he's dying?"

Then... I kinda realize that people nowadays had really got used to seeing a character still fighting crazy even when they're already bleeding all over. I mean.. seriously?

Can't people just sometimes try to widen their thoughts a little? For instance , when we get paper cuts , even if it's just a tiny one at our finger or something , I bet they're still gonna hurt a little , no?

Seems like violence and blood are what people demand to see in films and animations nowadays.

IF that is the case.. I think I'd like to drop my animation course. I don't ever think I could enjoy doing any animation if that's the demand in movies and films nowadays. I'm getting tired of how problematic society and the thoughts of people these days.

Sounds like I'm talking jiberish here >.> .. but oh well , I'm definitely having my bad days now..

There's not much people out there who really understands and treasures simple friendship and stuffs out there anymore now.. are they? =/